well, i think i'm gonna write a book of all the things that i've been through for the bullying. i wanna increase the knowledge people have about bullying. many seem to think bullying is only physical, like if u stick gum on someone hair, punch or kick... that sort of thing. but bullying is actually not so simple. most bullying cases involve emotional torture. evven purposely leaving someone out is also bullying. this monster comes out in many different forms. if any of you out there has any story to share bout bullying annything at all, feel free to post a comment on my blog!! that's all..
chloe
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
Sunday, June 24, 2007
ahhh! back to sch...
oh mann! i can't believe that i'm going back to school TOMORROW!!!! ahhh.... i'm really not looking 4ward 2 it at all... like i dun wanna see them anymore... you know who they are. and now my only friend is like nuraidah which i don't mind but is a far cry from last time!!hai... i wish i didn't hav to attend this sch... i mean of course i can chnge sch but now i study until halfway, chnge sch like very mah fan like that... hai hai hai!! how??? all i'm seriously totally freaking out right now. anywayz, i'll still have to go so no use pondering over it... oh sorry i cant publish out the spca pics... maybe nxt time but not now as blogger takes like soo long to publish those pics. i waited for like half and hour also nothin so i gave up.... sorry guys!
chloe
chloe
Thursday, June 21, 2007
spca pics!
hey y'll! got some news.. firstly sorry i haven't been posting for soo long... i'd really been soo damn busy these few dayz.
well i'm quitting npcc... i cant stand the pple there anymore.. i mean like not my squad but some pple. i really dun wanna say who. anyway.. duhss i'm just QUITTING!!
secondly these are the wonderful pics from my spca trip. i tried to upload them but failure... wait till the nest time.. i promise i put them on. Promise.
chloe...
bluestar.imeem.com
well i'm quitting npcc... i cant stand the pple there anymore.. i mean like not my squad but some pple. i really dun wanna say who. anyway.. duhss i'm just QUITTING!!
secondly these are the wonderful pics from my spca trip. i tried to upload them but failure... wait till the nest time.. i promise i put them on. Promise.
chloe...
bluestar.imeem.com
Monday, June 11, 2007
life list!!
sorry... haven't been posting for soo long... been quite busy durin the holidays.. well i'm going to the SPCA on wednesday! can't wait.. i'd be sure to post pics on my blog then.. well i've configured out something called my life list. Ellen talked bout it in her show. it lists like everything you wanna do in your life and you go ahead and do all those things to live your life to the fullest.. well here's a leak about my life list:
1. to try ice-skating
2. to make and design a piece of clothing
3. to go to paris
4. to learn fencing
5. to volunteer in an animal home/ charity organisation
6. to spend christmas in a place with snow
7. to celebrate halloween
8. to learn spanish
9. to learn japanese
10. to help set up a charity organisation to help pple around the world
11. to attempt skiing
12. to go to greece
kinda simple huh?
maybe you shld make one
make your life worthwhile
chloe.. :P
1. to try ice-skating
2. to make and design a piece of clothing
3. to go to paris
4. to learn fencing
5. to volunteer in an animal home/ charity organisation
6. to spend christmas in a place with snow
7. to celebrate halloween
8. to learn spanish
9. to learn japanese
10. to help set up a charity organisation to help pple around the world
11. to attempt skiing
12. to go to greece
kinda simple huh?
maybe you shld make one
make your life worthwhile
chloe.. :P
Saturday, June 2, 2007
poem...
visit my imeem webpg... www.blue-star.imeem.com
i just wanted to share a poem that someone wrote... and i saw.... just wanna tell all that this poem belongs to her... so there's copyrights.. don't copy and say its yours... kk??
I was a failure and a reject
in the delusion of my mind.
I had a million eyes to give,
but people still were blind.
Things never would have gone so bad
if it hadn't been for you.
You took my normal, happy life
and tore it right in two.
Every day a living hell.
To go on was a curse.
And love and joy and happiness
they only make it worse.
I never saw my life.
I watched it slowly fade away.
But I saw the darkness
as it came in for its stay.
The darkness was you
and the shadow you cast.
Fear filled my soul
now I'll never last.
In the darkness of my mind
hide the secrets of hell.
And every other horrible thing
where only demons dwell.
But I also hide the secret
of all the pain you caused.
I didn't want the world to know
who or what I was.
You can't be saved.
Your destiny's chosen
Your path has been paved.
No potions to save you
nor magical spells.
And I smile, and whisper
you'll be in hell.
i just wanted to share a poem that someone wrote... and i saw.... just wanna tell all that this poem belongs to her... so there's copyrights.. don't copy and say its yours... kk??
I was a failure and a reject
in the delusion of my mind.
I had a million eyes to give,
but people still were blind.
Things never would have gone so bad
if it hadn't been for you.
You took my normal, happy life
and tore it right in two.
Every day a living hell.
To go on was a curse.
And love and joy and happiness
they only make it worse.
I never saw my life.
I watched it slowly fade away.
But I saw the darkness
as it came in for its stay.
The darkness was you
and the shadow you cast.
Fear filled my soul
now I'll never last.
In the darkness of my mind
hide the secrets of hell.
And every other horrible thing
where only demons dwell.
But I also hide the secret
of all the pain you caused.
I didn't want the world to know
who or what I was.
You can't be saved.
Your destiny's chosen
Your path has been paved.
No potions to save you
nor magical spells.
And I smile, and whisper
you'll be in hell.
Saturday, May 26, 2007
haha!! revenge....
wow! holidayz @ last woh... anywyaz have gd news...
well the DAWN matter is over! actually me and nuraidah jus went 2 tell our form teacher... and then form teacher told sec 2 head... then we had meeting.... this was what happened:
sec 2 head asked dawn why she did all those terrible things and blah... dawn act cool xia, like pretend very annoyed and all dat... blehs... then she hadd deleted the posts in her blog... hahaxx
then because dawn like nv take it seriously and still twist and turn the story, our form teacher so disappointed with her.. then went outside and cried... that time i was like so angry, in fact tryin 2 control myself from landing my fist in DAwn's face.... GRRR!!
then sec 2 head wanted 2 wait 4 my form teacher but no time to wait so continued w/o her. sec 2 head then asked y dor and ying hated me.
well when they say things out i really felt so betrayed! like i can't believe that those 2 WERE my bestest of friends! luckily is WERE. they go say what do project i keep on do the easy things then ask them 2 do da difficult things then coz got more easy things then i do more than them then i take all the credits.... SHIT LAH! i where got do dat lorr. is everytime i do project they always play play and laugh laugh so distracted, not even like serious or what lor... is they all dun wan 2 do then when i ask them to do then they will do sumthin rotten 4 me then i mus redo...
so when sec 2 head wanted me 2 explain i noe that they r tellin lies or have sumthin wrong w/ their memory or sum thin lah... then i just say sorry lor... wah lao eh.... they dun deserve the apology... but still have 2 say lah... if not next half of yr still continue angry meh. then i say i do work bcoz my standard higher so maybe i expect more... make them feel "sad" ... as if i wanted 2 say.. if i really blurted out every single thing they did that will make form teacher more saddd, then the matter cant be resolved also... wah lao... shit lah.
then they STILL wanna say more... bitches mann! they say wad i insult pple ugly or wad lah... actually i nv lor... is they say pple then sometime bcoz i with them wad so i like say abit with them lah.. is they say first! they say not i say... BACKSTABBERS! one of the pple i hate most... RRAHHHHH~~~!!!!
but i think the sec 2 head noe that its a lie then say i have a lot of courage 2 apologise and blahs and that they are too petty to remember and they also talk bad bout me and nuraidah wad...so they also insult pple lah... they were speechless.. tears welled in my eyes... you shld hv no idea how much hate and bitterness was in my heart @ that very moment. we were once the best of friends that no one could seperate... they BACKSTABBED ME....
then sec 2 head ask nabila then nab said that she liked me and she wanted 2 be a friend... she cried. I CRIED. nabila!! thnk u...
shimin handed out tissues then later her eyes were red.
then aft that talk bout nuraidah's issues. dun wanna say coz nv ask her permission.
Aft the meeting sec 2 head said 2 me the way i handled the situation very mature she was PROUD... i was HAPPY.
then ltr that day dawn sms me say that dor and ying angry @ me coz i say my standard high, indirectly saying their standard low... wa lao... its the truth wad... i 3rd in clss top few in sec 2 they in class and in the whole sec 2 got bottom few.. isn't their standard BAD??
well then i just replied i use worng words then sorry again lah, wah lao... i dun need 2 say sorry de loh.. i didn't even do anythin wrong.
then DAWn sms me agn say shld hv jus tell her dat i dun lik her talking bout me... like WHO IN THE RIGHT MIND WOULD APPROACH A BULLY AND SAY "I DUN LIKE YR BULLYING SO DUN BULLY ME ANYMORE" !!! ridiculous.... any way i jus say we felt safer with a teacher around.
so that's how da situation ended. dun wanna say the teachers' name to protect them...
althought the bullying ended, THE HATE IN OUR HEARTS AND SOULS WILL CONTINUE TO LIVE AND STRIVE OFF THE BITTERNESS WE STILL HOLD AGAINST EACH OTHER>
but the problem with an eye for an eye, both goes blind.
i feel sorry for dawn and the 2 bitches. they've believed and percieved me to be a terrible individual but now they have turned into what they hate... and worse....
the end.
well the DAWN matter is over! actually me and nuraidah jus went 2 tell our form teacher... and then form teacher told sec 2 head... then we had meeting.... this was what happened:
sec 2 head asked dawn why she did all those terrible things and blah... dawn act cool xia, like pretend very annoyed and all dat... blehs... then she hadd deleted the posts in her blog... hahaxx
then because dawn like nv take it seriously and still twist and turn the story, our form teacher so disappointed with her.. then went outside and cried... that time i was like so angry, in fact tryin 2 control myself from landing my fist in DAwn's face.... GRRR!!
then sec 2 head wanted 2 wait 4 my form teacher but no time to wait so continued w/o her. sec 2 head then asked y dor and ying hated me.
well when they say things out i really felt so betrayed! like i can't believe that those 2 WERE my bestest of friends! luckily is WERE. they go say what do project i keep on do the easy things then ask them 2 do da difficult things then coz got more easy things then i do more than them then i take all the credits.... SHIT LAH! i where got do dat lorr. is everytime i do project they always play play and laugh laugh so distracted, not even like serious or what lor... is they all dun wan 2 do then when i ask them to do then they will do sumthin rotten 4 me then i mus redo...
so when sec 2 head wanted me 2 explain i noe that they r tellin lies or have sumthin wrong w/ their memory or sum thin lah... then i just say sorry lor... wah lao eh.... they dun deserve the apology... but still have 2 say lah... if not next half of yr still continue angry meh. then i say i do work bcoz my standard higher so maybe i expect more... make them feel "sad" ... as if i wanted 2 say.. if i really blurted out every single thing they did that will make form teacher more saddd, then the matter cant be resolved also... wah lao... shit lah.
then they STILL wanna say more... bitches mann! they say wad i insult pple ugly or wad lah... actually i nv lor... is they say pple then sometime bcoz i with them wad so i like say abit with them lah.. is they say first! they say not i say... BACKSTABBERS! one of the pple i hate most... RRAHHHHH~~~!!!!
but i think the sec 2 head noe that its a lie then say i have a lot of courage 2 apologise and blahs and that they are too petty to remember and they also talk bad bout me and nuraidah wad...so they also insult pple lah... they were speechless.. tears welled in my eyes... you shld hv no idea how much hate and bitterness was in my heart @ that very moment. we were once the best of friends that no one could seperate... they BACKSTABBED ME....
then sec 2 head ask nabila then nab said that she liked me and she wanted 2 be a friend... she cried. I CRIED. nabila!! thnk u...
shimin handed out tissues then later her eyes were red.
then aft that talk bout nuraidah's issues. dun wanna say coz nv ask her permission.
Aft the meeting sec 2 head said 2 me the way i handled the situation very mature she was PROUD... i was HAPPY.
then ltr that day dawn sms me say that dor and ying angry @ me coz i say my standard high, indirectly saying their standard low... wa lao... its the truth wad... i 3rd in clss top few in sec 2 they in class and in the whole sec 2 got bottom few.. isn't their standard BAD??
well then i just replied i use worng words then sorry again lah, wah lao... i dun need 2 say sorry de loh.. i didn't even do anythin wrong.
then DAWn sms me agn say shld hv jus tell her dat i dun lik her talking bout me... like WHO IN THE RIGHT MIND WOULD APPROACH A BULLY AND SAY "I DUN LIKE YR BULLYING SO DUN BULLY ME ANYMORE" !!! ridiculous.... any way i jus say we felt safer with a teacher around.
so that's how da situation ended. dun wanna say the teachers' name to protect them...
althought the bullying ended, THE HATE IN OUR HEARTS AND SOULS WILL CONTINUE TO LIVE AND STRIVE OFF THE BITTERNESS WE STILL HOLD AGAINST EACH OTHER>
but the problem with an eye for an eye, both goes blind.
i feel sorry for dawn and the 2 bitches. they've believed and percieved me to be a terrible individual but now they have turned into what they hate... and worse....
the end.
Sunday, May 20, 2007
ohhhh nooo! nuraidah watch out!
just went to idiot dawn's blog... she has a next victim in mind... nuraidah!! how can she do that... like as if she is god or sumthing... oh no..! must help nuraidah.. i dun wann nuraidah 2 turn out like me like that... you noe like no friends, soo lonely, like having to feel neglected like all the time. i mean i'm a tough girl, i've got over it. but nuraidah, oh no she's like going to have hell. she is like nice and gentle, half japanese and like the sweetest girl of all ~.~
i just can't believe that dawn is going to treat her like she did to me.
btw i like to thank shimin... gal i luv ya! well on friday, she was like trying to pursuade dawn not to bully me anymore. i was sitting like nearby but pretended to be engrossed in a book or something.DAWN!!!! mannn.. she is like a big bully! RAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!! make me soo angry de!
you know like sometimes i'll wonder what will happen in the future like when we grow up and have jobs and all... well here's a profile of what i think lies for our FUTURE... (lols)
me 29: owner of sucessful fashion design company and fashion magazine firm. maybe even sucessful career as a hollywood celeb!!
dawn 30: housewife in singapore, part time music teacher, lots of wrinkles... hahaxx
viny 29: just finished MBA, went on to set of a design firm in Indonesia
shimin 29: part time model, has dreams of being on the cover of elle magazine
kharmei 30: business woman, stockbroker
doreen 30: housewife, nothing more
huiying 30: chinese news anchor
well that's it... hahaxx... DAWN IF YOU SEE THIS BLOG, I HAVE THREE WORDS FOR YOU... GO 2 HELL... well that's what you told me b4 didn't you! idiot...
i just can't believe that dawn is going to treat her like she did to me.
btw i like to thank shimin... gal i luv ya! well on friday, she was like trying to pursuade dawn not to bully me anymore. i was sitting like nearby but pretended to be engrossed in a book or something.DAWN!!!! mannn.. she is like a big bully! RAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!! make me soo angry de!
you know like sometimes i'll wonder what will happen in the future like when we grow up and have jobs and all... well here's a profile of what i think lies for our FUTURE... (lols)
me 29: owner of sucessful fashion design company and fashion magazine firm. maybe even sucessful career as a hollywood celeb!!
dawn 30: housewife in singapore, part time music teacher, lots of wrinkles... hahaxx
viny 29: just finished MBA, went on to set of a design firm in Indonesia
shimin 29: part time model, has dreams of being on the cover of elle magazine
kharmei 30: business woman, stockbroker
doreen 30: housewife, nothing more
huiying 30: chinese news anchor
well that's it... hahaxx... DAWN IF YOU SEE THIS BLOG, I HAVE THREE WORDS FOR YOU... GO 2 HELL... well that's what you told me b4 didn't you! idiot...
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